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NOTE: I am forever backtag friendly and absolutely open to doing things from past events that won't really have an effect on things at any given time. For example, if you'd like to do something with Peter aged down or when he was his spider dream guide, etc.
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like when the dopplegangers were here
that was really scary
i can...always say who i am when i text you from now on? if that'll help?
[this is the best conversation change, because will loves!! his pets!!]
he's nice. you'd like him. he likes to hide in pockets.
frodo's a pomeranian, i think. i'll send you a picture, hold on
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cw: mention of animal death, thanks Hereditary (nondescriptive, though)
That'd be really nice though
I'll do that too
Thanks, Will
Ohhh no he's adorable
What a little fluff bucket
Dogs are the best. I have one back home, too
His name's Rex
[ ....Actually his dog was uhhhhh killed by the same cult that killed the rest of his entire family, but Peter doesn't explicitly know that. Maybe not-so-deep-down he figures, but it's not something he can think about too much. ]
I'll have to meet your little zoo sometime
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animals are the best.
i also know a deer named seymour
he has lots of eyes
do you wanna meet them now? i can come over. [william, some people have SCHOOL.]
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She's tiny but really scary
And makes all the rules
Can I just ask... Are all his eyes on his face
[ SOME people have school, but Peter is not one of them. Not currently, anyway. He's casually taking an....... entire month off, it's fine. ]
I'd absolutely be down for that
I'll make popcorn
[ ........Fancy, Peter. ]
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she sounds like my mom
what's her name?
no they're all over.
i think it helps him see. [will is very blase about this. also he supports your truancy!!]
like from scratch?
cool
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Oh, I see
Not as good as he does, but I still see
Where'd you meet this deer?
[ Check Peter just trying to casually find out if this many-eyed deer is a thing he needs to be worried about running into next time he has to get some groceries. ]
Oh I'm not that skilled
It's just Orville Redenbacher
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kinda weird that there's people here i haven't met yet
is she nice
at the park. he was eating bees [so yes, peter, the eldritch abomination deer are going to find you in the soup aisle]
oh that kind's way better
that's what my mom makes
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Definitely wears the pants in our house
[ As much as he teases her about being "mean", he can't honestly call her that to someone else. Henry's... helped him, taken care of him. She does what she has to, and he knows she hasn't had it easy.
She's strong. In ways Peter isn't. (On that note, he's making a mental reminder to avoid the park for... awhile. Maybe until winter when all the animals hopefully go away.) ]
Oh yeah?
What's your mom like?
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but that's good
it'd suck if you were alone.
she's
the best
she gets overwhelmed and frazzled and stuff, but she's really nice and she's brave and she never gives up and she doesn't listen to what anyone else says
you'd like her
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I literally owe her my life......
[ Is his way of expressing how grateful he is to Henry. And... for not being alone. Honestly, if he was in that house all on his own, he'd probably go nuts. And absolutely have died by now. Henry's kept him grounded and safe since he crawled up on the lawn in the fits of that first panic attack here, a broken mess with a broken face. She's watched out for him. She's a lot like Will that way β even if her particular touch is.. less soft.... ]
Oh man, she sounds awesome
Like a badass mom? A nice badass mom
Do you have any pictures of her here?
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yeah, one sec. [after a moment, he sends along a photo. wow, look at her deserving the world. amazing.]
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Though we're both pretty bad about eating like we're two dudes living in a college dorm
Someday... I'll learn how to cook
[ That photo draws a long pause, in which Peter's just gazing at it. Something stirs under his ribs β admittedly, an uncomfortable sensation at first. He patiently waits for it to dissipate into something else, and then he's giving a quiet little smile to himself, because wow, she: ]
She looks just like you
I bet you get that all the time, but
She really does
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i mean, really easy soup. in one of those big pot things.
i could show you, if you wanna.
i don't really know anything else, but soup's good.
[peter can't see it, of course, but will lights up, grinning so hard it's almost painful. he doesn't talk about his mom a lot, because it's one of the deepest, most painful losses that deerington's thrown at him, but hearing that is...it's good. it's nice.]
for real? you think so?
nobody really says that. at home.
they call me lonnie's boy, mostly.
i guess cause he was from hawkins and mom isn't, so
people think i'm his, not hers.
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I'd like that a lot. To learn. Maybe even I could handle making that
Just kind of put stuff in and let it cook, right?
[ It isn't easy, Talking About Moms, but it's...easier to listen. He wants to listen to Will, who means a lot to him. Even if it stings his heart in a highly uncomfortable way, because Peter misses his mom too, even if it had been complicated and they hadn't been... close. He can't imagine what it's like to miss your mom when you were as close as Will clearly was with his.
He's quiet for a bit, thinking about the "Lonnie's boy" bit. Ahhh. ]
You're definitely hers, I'd say
You really do look just like her
Especially the eyes. And the smile, I think
Yeah, there's a ton of her in you
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like rice and water and chicken and um
leaves?
bay leaves.
do you miss your family? sometimes? [there's the risk that it's a too-personal question, especially because he can't recall peter ever mentioning his parents or any siblings before. but it seems like a vulnerable enough moment to say something.]
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And then there's the question, and Peter's taking a moment. Addressing the loss of his entire family isn't something he's ever really... done. Even now, he can't say certain things or even think about them too much. But he can answer the question. ]
Yeah. I do miss them
[ There's a pause, and then: ]
My mom and I weren't close like you and your mom
We fought a lot. It was hard to even be in the same room sometimes
But I miss her
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was she mean?
or
y'know
did she not like things about you that you couldn't change?
[Will is an empathetic, smart kid, but he's still very much a kid, and this is him projecting a little to try and relate. He'd never really fought with his dad, but they couldn't be in the same room. More for his dad's sake -- he seemed to have trouble even looking at Will sometimes.]
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[ There's... a lot to this that Peter's wary to dump on someone else, plus the fact he's never... talked about it. Ever. You don't talk about those things; you just swallow them down. And it's all so much. How does he begin to explain the weird tension, the resentments... the dark secrets. His mom tried to kill him and his sister once, whether it was an accident or not. It's fucked up. They're fucked up. ]
Honestly, I'm not even sure. Maybe
It did seem like there was something about me she always resented?
Maybe it was because I didn't like the same kinds of stuff she did?
She was big into like, artistic stuff. Like my sister
I guess we couldn't relate very well
[ Part of it was maybe him getting older, being a bit of a Teenage Brat, sure. He could have been easier on his mom. But.... there just always was something strange there between the two of them. ]
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it sucks. when there's something that they don't like and you don't know how to fix it.
i mean, my mom didn't like the same kind of stuff as me, but she was still proud.
i think. she always said she was. [And he'd never had reason to doubt her, not with how fervent and passionate she was about her pride. Maybe it was an attempt to compensate for how Lonnie's disappointment permeated every corner of Will's life. It hadn't changed it, hadn't been able to drown it out, but Will still appreciated it.]
maybe it'll be different.
when you get back.
cw: familial death
You shouldn't have to fix something like that. If they make you feel like that... it's wrong
But I'm glad your mom wasn't like that
I think my mom was mostly just... unhappy?
Maybe I reminded her of why or something
[ Peter has his theories on that. You pick up on things, over times. And he'd been well old enough to realise... certain things about his mother, his... parents' relationship with one another. ]
Oh man yeah, maybe
[ The pause in which it takes him to send that takes too long, maybe. But he can't... say it yet. That he's almost entirely certain that his mother's dead β that everyone's dead. That nothing can ever get better. That the unspoken things between him and his mom will never be resolved. That he'll never see her again.
He needs to leave that thought behind, and he quietly tries toβ ]
But thanks, Will
For talking with me
I'm sorry I freaked out on you earlier
[ He does mean all of that. ]
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they look at you but they see someone else, kinda.
right?
[Or something else. Something they hate.]
you're welcome.
i'm not upset about it.
it wasn't scary.
i mean, it sort of was but
not as scary as it could be.
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Was that how your dad was?
It's okay if you don't want to talk about it, though
[ The honesty.... makes him pause. It gets to something in his chest, uncomfortable at the thought of his freak-out being even "sort of" scary. But he's also... weirdly touched? That Will admitted that? ]
I get pretty weird sometimes, don't I
[ This is the first time Peter's ever really addressed that to Will like this. He's known the younger boy's seen him through his rough times; he's come to pieces and cried and panicked at him more than once. Had to be talked down and comforted by him. It's easy to see Will as this sort of rock, but he is just a kid. And Peter freaking out about something so simple as a misfired text... well he can see how that would be.. distressing. ]
Sorry
I know I get scared really easily
Like.... too easily
I want to try not to do that so much
Especially at other people. It's not fair to them. Or you
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[Even being able to admit that little bit is...kind of a big deal for Will. His dad's always been this sort of shameful secret, this thing he couldn't fix and couldn't control and couldn't get out of his head, so even saying it is...good.
It feels bad, but it feels good, somehow. To have it out there.]
i don't think you're weird
everyone gets scared sometimes
it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you.