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like rice and water and chicken and um
leaves?
bay leaves.
do you miss your family? sometimes? [there's the risk that it's a too-personal question, especially because he can't recall peter ever mentioning his parents or any siblings before. but it seems like a vulnerable enough moment to say something.]
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And then there's the question, and Peter's taking a moment. Addressing the loss of his entire family isn't something he's ever really... done. Even now, he can't say certain things or even think about them too much. But he can answer the question. ]
Yeah. I do miss them
[ There's a pause, and then: ]
My mom and I weren't close like you and your mom
We fought a lot. It was hard to even be in the same room sometimes
But I miss her
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was she mean?
or
y'know
did she not like things about you that you couldn't change?
[Will is an empathetic, smart kid, but he's still very much a kid, and this is him projecting a little to try and relate. He'd never really fought with his dad, but they couldn't be in the same room. More for his dad's sake -- he seemed to have trouble even looking at Will sometimes.]
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[ There's... a lot to this that Peter's wary to dump on someone else, plus the fact he's never... talked about it. Ever. You don't talk about those things; you just swallow them down. And it's all so much. How does he begin to explain the weird tension, the resentments... the dark secrets. His mom tried to kill him and his sister once, whether it was an accident or not. It's fucked up. They're fucked up. ]
Honestly, I'm not even sure. Maybe
It did seem like there was something about me she always resented?
Maybe it was because I didn't like the same kinds of stuff she did?
She was big into like, artistic stuff. Like my sister
I guess we couldn't relate very well
[ Part of it was maybe him getting older, being a bit of a Teenage Brat, sure. He could have been easier on his mom. But.... there just always was something strange there between the two of them. ]
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it sucks. when there's something that they don't like and you don't know how to fix it.
i mean, my mom didn't like the same kind of stuff as me, but she was still proud.
i think. she always said she was. [And he'd never had reason to doubt her, not with how fervent and passionate she was about her pride. Maybe it was an attempt to compensate for how Lonnie's disappointment permeated every corner of Will's life. It hadn't changed it, hadn't been able to drown it out, but Will still appreciated it.]
maybe it'll be different.
when you get back.
cw: familial death
You shouldn't have to fix something like that. If they make you feel like that... it's wrong
But I'm glad your mom wasn't like that
I think my mom was mostly just... unhappy?
Maybe I reminded her of why or something
[ Peter has his theories on that. You pick up on things, over times. And he'd been well old enough to realise... certain things about his mother, his... parents' relationship with one another. ]
Oh man yeah, maybe
[ The pause in which it takes him to send that takes too long, maybe. But he can't... say it yet. That he's almost entirely certain that his mother's dead β that everyone's dead. That nothing can ever get better. That the unspoken things between him and his mom will never be resolved. That he'll never see her again.
He needs to leave that thought behind, and he quietly tries toβ ]
But thanks, Will
For talking with me
I'm sorry I freaked out on you earlier
[ He does mean all of that. ]
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they look at you but they see someone else, kinda.
right?
[Or something else. Something they hate.]
you're welcome.
i'm not upset about it.
it wasn't scary.
i mean, it sort of was but
not as scary as it could be.
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Was that how your dad was?
It's okay if you don't want to talk about it, though
[ The honesty.... makes him pause. It gets to something in his chest, uncomfortable at the thought of his freak-out being even "sort of" scary. But he's also... weirdly touched? That Will admitted that? ]
I get pretty weird sometimes, don't I
[ This is the first time Peter's ever really addressed that to Will like this. He's known the younger boy's seen him through his rough times; he's come to pieces and cried and panicked at him more than once. Had to be talked down and comforted by him. It's easy to see Will as this sort of rock, but he is just a kid. And Peter freaking out about something so simple as a misfired text... well he can see how that would be.. distressing. ]
Sorry
I know I get scared really easily
Like.... too easily
I want to try not to do that so much
Especially at other people. It's not fair to them. Or you
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[Even being able to admit that little bit is...kind of a big deal for Will. His dad's always been this sort of shameful secret, this thing he couldn't fix and couldn't control and couldn't get out of his head, so even saying it is...good.
It feels bad, but it feels good, somehow. To have it out there.]
i don't think you're weird
everyone gets scared sometimes
it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you.