[ It was so much easier when they had that thread, when she could feel what he felt and meant. Peter's no good with expressing things, but... he has to communicate with her. He knows that. He wants to. He is afraid, but he isn't running from her; if he was, he wouldn't have taken that little step of asking her out. It's something simple, innocent, a little date, but it's... also a lot. It is opening a door. ]
I do know. And I'm really glad
[ He does, truly, and doesn't doubt that he makes her happy. He can see that; he's felt it. They make each other very happy, and despite the little confusions and aches, theirs is a very mature relationship. Though his own honesty is coated in fear, and sometimes second-guesses itself, Peter will only ever be honest with her in return. ]
I guess I've just never thought something like that could really be for me, either Things like relationships They feel like this really big thing Like you're growing with someone I mean I know a lot of people our age are whatever about things like that, it's no big deal to them But for us It's something big
[ He knows she understands. They've talked about it before, about not fitting in and feeling weird amongst their peers, and he knows she's had it worse than him, even. Peter's own ostracisation was self-inflicted, not the result of bullying. But they're still on the same wavelength, he thinks, about it being something... big, and meaningful. Scary. ....And especially now that he's a murderer and there's apparently a demon from Hell living inside of him to factor into the equation. But that's a conversation for another day. ]
I do trust you I trust you more than I've ever trusted anyone
[ "Hope" is... a scary word. A word he's shirked from, for... a long time. He hasn't allowed himself to get hopeful about anything, really. Does he have hope that... after what he tells her, Luna will still think well of him? Will still want him around? Still... like him? He...wants to. He's afraid, and then there's the huge part of him that functions through guilt, who thinks too much happiness isn't deserved. ]
Thank you, Luna I'm sorry if I upset you I'm bad at all of this if you couldn't already tell
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I do know. And I'm really glad
[ He does, truly, and doesn't doubt that he makes her happy. He can see that; he's felt it. They make each other very happy, and despite the little confusions and aches, theirs is a very mature relationship. Though his own honesty is coated in fear, and sometimes second-guesses itself, Peter will only ever be honest with her in return. ]
I guess I've just never thought something like that could really be for me, either
Things like relationships
They feel like this really big thing
Like you're growing with someone
I mean I know a lot of people our age are whatever about things like that, it's no big deal to them
But for us
It's something big
[ He knows she understands. They've talked about it before, about not fitting in and feeling weird amongst their peers, and he knows she's had it worse than him, even. Peter's own ostracisation was self-inflicted, not the result of bullying. But they're still on the same wavelength, he thinks, about it being something... big, and meaningful. Scary. ....And especially now that he's a murderer and there's apparently a demon from Hell living inside of him to factor into the equation. But that's a conversation for another day. ]
I do trust you
I trust you more than I've ever trusted anyone
[ "Hope" is... a scary word. A word he's shirked from, for... a long time. He hasn't allowed himself to get hopeful about anything, really. Does he have hope that... after what he tells her, Luna will still think well of him? Will still want him around? Still... like him? He...wants to. He's afraid, and then there's the huge part of him that functions through guilt, who thinks too much happiness isn't deserved. ]
Thank you, Luna
I'm sorry if I upset you
I'm bad at all of this
if you couldn't already tell
[ A little bit of light-heartedness. ]